Thursday, December 20, 2012

Liberating Zombies

"Kau mungkin zombie yang bijak. Tapi zombie nevertheless. Until ko faham the subtleties of God's giveth and taketh is God's taketh and giveth, ko kan remain zombie." "Once ko have fallen into  the oblivion -then only you'll be liberated." ~ Mat Poyo.

Apo yg ko cakap ni Mat P?

Ha?!
Oops sorry, tercampur 2 benda dalam satu tu heh...!
Hah! Pandai-pandai le ko asingkan!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Cemburumu cemburuku jua

Ketahuilah Allah itu cemburuNya maha
Pada ciptaan yang mamai buta
Menyintai tiada dari ada
Berkata esa memendam dua

Apakah ada selain Dia?
Gurindam palsu khayalan si hamba
Hamba yang mabuk gila persona
Melirik bayang yang nyata tiada

Setelah diciptakan hanya untukNya
Masihkah betah berlaku durjana?
Berpaling qidam kepada adam
Berpaling baqa kepada binasa

Jika di luar pentas mencari
Lelah dan resah sedia menanti
Sedang yang dalam amat teliti
Rapi berselindung dalam sebati

Pintalah ingin Tuan azali
Agar disentap tirai ilusi
Moga terhidang rahsia sirri
Rahsia yang terhijab dibalik diri

Nan hilang aku, hilanglah diri
Nyatalah wajah yang dihajati
Aku yang berdiri yang tak kan mati
Aku yang kekal masih menanti
Pulangkanlah...
Dan pulanglah...

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Adab Simpuh

Orang tua itu berpesan, "Jangan kamu risau apa yang ada dalam fikiranmu, kerana ia ada  bersamamu. Risaukanlah akan apa yang ada dalam fikiran orang lain kerana ianya (ilmu) masih lagi bersamanya.

Diam, dengar. Sabar, walau kamu rasa kamu sudah tahu. Moga-moga apa yang di dalam fikirannya itu berpindah kepada kamu".


Monday, July 30, 2012

soalan maut

Lisut, siapa yang tak kenal dengan dia..satu kampung dari kecil hingga orang tua kenal dengan Lisut. Orang gila kampung yang disisihkan keluarga, tinggal di pondok tepi kebun berhampiran rumah pusaka arwah ayahnya. Adik beradiknya ada yang tinggal di sini dan sesekali ada juga anak saudaranya datang memberi nasi bekal. Tapi Lisut tetap Lisut, lebih senang menyendiri dari melayan orang2 gila yang mengaku normal. Gila kuasa, darjat, gila nama dan pangkat. Gilanya tidak menyusahkan orang, sebaliknya membantu orang. Kerjanya mudah saja, setiap hari dia ke pekan membawa baldi dan tuala. Di sana dia akan mencuci kereta orang-orang yang parking di pasar tanpa disuruh. Kerana simpati dan menghargai kerja bersihnya yang teliti, dia dibayar seringgit dan kadang2 lebih....

Kadang2 selepas mencuci kereta dia akan menari sambil menggendangkan baldinya. Asyik sungguh dia menari dan menyanyi. Kelakuannya mengundang ketawa orang awam. Sekali tu semasa Wak sedang berjalan dengan Ronasina, Lisut berkawat seperti askar..Ronasina tersenyum kerana kawatnya tak sama dengan sebutannya..Dia menyebut kiri..kanan..kiri..kanan sedang lenggangnya kanan kiri kanan kiri! Anehnya Wak tak dengar kiri kanan kiri kanan tapi Wak dengar "La ilaha Illallah" berulang kali seperti dia berzikir. Mati-mati Ronasina mengatakan kiri kanan tetapi telinga Wak tetap dengar zikir tahlil itu"..

Entah kenapa tiba-tiba Lisut berdiri di hadapan kami dan bertanyakan sesuatu. Lisut kenal Wak kerana Wak selalu belanja dia teh..
"Wak! Malaikat Jibril kerjanya menyampaikan wahyu kepada Rasul! sekarang Rasul dah wafat, Jibril pencen ke? Atau dia buat kerja basuh kereta macam aku?"
Lisut terus berjalan sambil berkawat bertahlil!

Ronasina menggaru-garu tengkuknya memandang Wak........

~wj.

Silence

SILENCE AND THE SOUL

In the Qur’an we are told that it is Mary’s holy silence in the temple that allowed her to conceive the divine Word. In this dream the dreamer tells the little girl that this experience is “her secret.” Experiences of the soul need to be kept sacred, and silence is the greatest protection against the pollution of the ego and the disbelief of the world. Silence gives space for the sacred to unfold. Through silence the soul can slowly manifest and share its secrets. If we inwardly rest in silence we are contained in its tenderness and are able to open ourself to life without becoming distorted. Through an inner attitude of silence we can learn to see through the confusion of the outer world and stay true to the essence. Silence has the quality of clarity.

Through silence we can learn to listen to the inner rhythm of our own soul and thus live in harmony with it. As much as we have denied the inner reality of the soul, so we have forgotten the wisdom of silence. We have even grown frightened of silence because it speaks to the emptiness of our material values. When I see people jogging with Walkmans I wonder at their relationship to sound. Is it a necessary distraction from a silence that resonates with some dark secret?

I said to my soul, be still, and let the dark come upon you
Which shall be the darkness of God. As, in a theatre,
The lights are extinguished, for the scene to be changed
With a hollow rumble of wings, with a movement of darkness on darkness,
And we know that the hills and the trees, the distant panorama
And the bold imposing facade are all being rolled away—
Or as, when an underground train, in the tube, stops too long between stations
And the conversation rises and slowly fades into silence
And you see behind every face the mental emptiness deepen
Leaving only the growing terror of nothing to think about;
We need to reclaim silence from the shadow of our Western culture because silence is the gateway to the Beloved. Through silence He speaks to us. It is in the silent spaces of our lives that He comes closest to us. This is because silence is undefined and He speaks to us of the endless vistas of our own being. The Beloved cannot be contained in words, but He can be communed with in silence. It is for this reason that the deepest prayer is without words. It is a silent communion within the heart, a lover’s meeting in which words would be a blasphemy.

But silence does not necessarily mean the exclusion of sound. In our world of opposites we have separated the two and denied their dialogue. In music we know the value of the silence between the notes, which, like the spaces in a Chinese landscape painting, allow a depth of meaning to become manifest. The spaces between sounds speak to us in the same way that the spaces between the stars call us into the beyond. Silence is deeper than sound. “In the beginning was the Word,” but silence was before the beginning. Silence is the unmanifest and as such it reminds us of what we were before we experi- enced separation. The mystic longs to return to this primal state, to “the dark silence in which all lovers lose themselves.”

As we become rooted in our own being so we carry this silence beneath the sounds of our everyday life. To be “in the world but not of the world” is to be inwardly immersed in silence and yet at the same time responsive to the sounds of the world. What this means is that we listen to the world with the silent ear of the Beloved. Spiritual conception begins the process of opening our inner ear and becoming attuned to His song which is always present in the silence that underlies creation. We become empty so that we can hear His song for Him.

At the present time this song has a new note. Silence is calling to us, telling us to listen as the hidden name of God becomes manifest amidst the noise of our city streets. Silence comes to us unexpectedly and we no longer need to retire to the mountain to find it. Silence is looking for us with the urgency of a lover. Silence needs to speak to us. It has something to share. The heart of the world is being opened and we need to be present. As with the Virgin Mary it is our own holy silence that will help this spiritual conception to take place. In silence the Beloved is speaking to us, and if we do not listen the moment will pass and many possibilities will be lost. This is a moment of grace that needs to be contained in silence, the silence of a conscious listening to the mystery of the soul.

The lovers of God need to hold the silence of the world so that the marketplace can be impregnated with love. It is not a silence of seclusion, but of passionate involvement with ordinary life that can help His name to be implanted in the blood. Sufis have always been involved in humanity. But until now they have kept their secret message, their bond with the Beloved, hidden and revealed only to friends. But now there is a need for this bond to be made known in public so that those who need to know its existence can openly look for it and find it.

The inner and outer worlds need to be bonded together, the beyond brought into the offices and the shopping malls. There is an urgency about this for at the present time the world is falling apart. The material world carries the painful shadow of our own separation and the inner world haunts us with drug, alcohol and other addictions. The momentum that drove us to dominate the physical world has lost meaning and purpose and become a dangerous addiction in itself. Without the stability of the soul the world can easily disintegrate into total chaos. This moment of transition has its danger.

The opposites of the inner and outer world have become highly polarized. When this happens the tension between the opposites can be either very creative or very destructive. The energy generated by this polarization can either catapult humanity into a new level of awareness or tear the world apart. The bond between the lover and the Beloved is the strongest link with the beyond, and it is through this link that grace can flow into the world. This bond can contain the tension of opposites and allow His grace to catalyze the dynamic of transfor- mation. But for this to happen it must be consciously present in the midst of the outer world. It must be in the marketplace. If it is not totally present then the energy that could create a transformation will only cause further separation between the opposites.

SILENCE AND HOPE
The process of separatio has reached a collective extreme. The coniunctio of these opposites is not an abstract ideal but a practical necessity. This union is already dynamically present in the collective uncon- scious, manifesting in the leading edge of our Western consciousness. Sub-atomic physicists see the interplay of spirit and matter in the dance of the atoms, while the astronauts’ sight of the world as a single living organism gives us for the first time a visual experience of our planetary wholeness. The knowledge of the union that underlies the multiplicity of life has, until now, been held in secret trust by the mystic. Everything that is created knows unconsciously this essential oneness:

And in everything there is a witness for Him
that points to the fact that He is One.

But the mystic has been the guardian of the conscious knowledge that “Everything is He” (hama ├╗st ). It is now time for this knowledge to be shared more openly.

Our Western culture has become identified with form, as is evident in the way we value ourselves by what we do rather than the quality of our experience. We value our material surroundings more than the inner life which they contain. Similarly we have identified communica- tion with sound and lost touch with the deeper commu- nion of silence. Those who have attended meditation meetings or other silent gatherings can attest to the power of silence and how it allows a quality of communication beyond the range of sound. It is in silence that hearts speak to each other. Through silence we can recognize the frequency of souls and the patterns of their unfolding. In silence there is space for something deeper than the ego to communicate. For centuries we have learnt how to share words and sounds. Now we need to learn how to share silence. We need to listen to the pulse of our heart and share its hidden purpose with others.

The heart knows the meaning of union, because in essence union is a lovers’ meeting. It is this secret dimension of unity that His lovers have held in trust for the world. Through their hearts this consciousness needs to be implanted as a seed into the present stage of global transition. It needs to become part of the collective consciousness of mankind. The silence that underlies our collective chatter—the continual noise of our radios and televisions—instead of carrying the fear of desolation needs to beckon us with the heart’s affirmation of love.

If the inner and outer worlds can meet together and be held with the certainty of love then this present transition will lead to a flowering of the world’s soul. In the center of the world His lovers need to stand as pillars of hope, for they know the meaning of union. Their hope will counterbalance the fear of the collective, which has become so identified with the outer world that the idea of union with the inner world evokes the terror of the unknown combined with the darkness of the shadow. Fear contracts us into the ego, while hope opens us to the soul. Fear emphasizes the polarization, while hope binds us together. Hope gives space for the future to unfold.

In the silence of the heart hope speaks with the strength of love’s certainty. It opens others to the strength of their own need for the beyond. Hope contains the darkness and the insecurity, giving space for His grace to permeate our lives. If we allow it, this world can be a meeting place with the Beloved. His scent can permeate every corner of our lives; the fragrance of our own soul can be found in our most mundane activities. His lovers know this. They have been awakened to the knowledge that “God is All in All;” to quote Mechtild of Magdeburg:

“The day of my spiritual awakening was the day I saw and
knew I saw all things in God and God in all things.”

Spiritual conception is the moment this divine consciousness is implanted within the psyche. In their own inner work seekers prepare the space for this conception, and then they protect this seed until it flowers into consciousness. This solitary work has a direct influence on the world. At this moment the network of lovers who work upon themselves is also preparing the world soul for a possible conception. As individuals and especially as groups they are channeling the grace that can start the heart of the world spinning.

Seloka Jahiliah - Serakah Makrifah

Sahabatku,, jika suatu saat nanti aku pergi janganlah aku di tangisi. janganlah pertemuan denganku kau sesali janganlah aku di benci jangan pula kau caci sahabatku,,,


andainya nanti aku mendahuluimu sedekahkan Al-fatikhah buatku halalkan lah makan minumku maafkan salah khilafku kenang ku dalam do'amu agar tenang arwahku di alam baru.
Sahabatku,,
kita tak tau apa yang akan terjadi esok hari adakah aku masih di sini atau pergi seorang diri sendiri di tempat yang sepi tanpa ada siapa menemani. 
Sahabatku,,
sepuluh jari aku hulurkan mohon kemaafan jika diri ini pernah membuat kesalahan diriku hanya insan biasa tak lepas dari salah dan lupa hanya DIA yang Maha Sempurna pemilik jiwaku yang hina. 
Sahabatku,,
meski aku telah pergi nanti pergi menghadap panggilan ILAHI namun engkau selalu ku ingati kerana engkau adalah sahabat sejatiku...


Sahabat, sebelum pergi, lenyapkanlah dirimu tenggelam dalam wujud Esa DiriNya. Kerana selagi kamu masih berdiri dengan wujud bayanganmu yang adam, selagi itulah tiada guna apa segala.

Andai telah lenyap diri yang adam, maka tiada lagi sesal, tiada lagi keji, caci,  benci dan puji. Yang ada hanyalah Dia. Dan apakah yang tiada itu masih lagi gelisah akan segala yang juga tiada?

Ketika telah berjaya kembalimu adam, tiada lagi kamu bergantungan pada Al FatihahNya, tidak juga bergantungan pada sedekah amal jariah dan amal lelah mu. Kerana segalanya itu hanyalah Dia. Bergantunglah semata-mata padaNya. Kerana samada kamu tertipu atau ditunjuki, hanya Dialah As Somad. Dialah Al Hadi. Dialah An Nur. Nur langit dan bumi dan apa-apa yang diantaranya.

Jika telah kamu lebur dalam wujudNya, kan tahulah kamu bahawasanya selamanya Dia sendiri, wa lam ya kun lahu kufu-wan ahad. Apakah ada resah dan risau lagi bagi suatu yang tiada?

Jika telah kamu kembali kehadirat Ilahi, masihkah lagi perlu mengingati selain Dia? Apakah tidak cukup dengan Dia? Apakah ada lain selain Dia? Apakah masih ada kamu? Alangkah durjananya kamu jika begitu!

Jangan begitu!
Sekali-kali jangan begitu!
Lenyapkanlah wujud selain wujudNya. Kerana sebenar-benar wujud hanyalah Dia. WujudNya yang sedia ada, wujudNya yang kekal selamanya, wujudNya yang tiada bersamaan dengan segala yang diciptakan, wujudNya yang berdiri sendiri dan wujudNya yang Esa. Dan juga wujudNya yang Unggul Berkuasa, wujudNya yang Unggul Berkehendak, wujudNya yang Unggul Berilmu, wujudNya yang Unggul Hidup, wujudNya yang Unggul Mendengar, wujudNya yang Unggul Melihat dan wujudNyalah yang Unggul Berkata-kata.  Maka adakah lain wujud selain dari wujudNya yang sebegitu?

Inilah masanya. Bukan semalam, bukan esok. Kembalilah dengan mengiktiraf akan tiadanya Haq makhluk kecuali hanya Haq Ta'ala belaka. Iktiraflah dalam setiap denyut nadimu, dalam tiap larian darah dipembuluh darahmu. Iktiraflah hanya Dia. Tak perlu bertanya di mana dirimu. Cukuplah menyaksikan DiriNya. Dalam setiap nafasmu, itulah Dia. Nyatalah yang unggul tiada nyata. Hilanglah segala kenyataan lain.

Hentikanlah seloka jahiliyah. Tuntutlah akan makrifah. Dan itulah yang paling utama.
Pohonlah kurniaNya.
Sujudlah.
Mengadahlah.
Pasrahlah.
Jangan kamu beralih dari kaki-lima RahmahNya. Kerana hanya Dia yang mampu memperkenalkan DiriNya.
Runtunlah dariNya agar kamu diselamatkan. Sungguh tiada apa yang bisa menyelamatkan kamu dan kami selain Dia.
Runtunlah.
Dan runtunlah sepenuh hatimu, segenap jiwa ragamu.
Dan runtunlah lagi.
Runtunlah ibarat hari ini api nerakaNya yang hitam terik pedihnya itu telah mengait kakimu.
Runtunlah seputus nyawamu… kerana sesungguhnya hanya Dialah yang bisa menyelamatkan kamu.

Ada Bila Tiada

Ketika kamu masih ada, Tuhan tiada. Yang kamu sangka ada itu Hantu.
Hanya ketika kamu tiada nyata adaNya.

God, whose love and joy are present everywhere,
can’t come to visit you unless you aren’t there.